My name is Natalia and I have created this website out of pure playfulness. Admittedly, the reasons for this website to exist are nobler than just a simple desire to play. Most notably, I have created it out of my deep conviction that not all of us – me included – get a chance to always be true to ourselves.
From early age we are expected to be Mr. and Mrs. Normals, abiding by the rules, conforming to the stereotypes and above all never challenging the status quo. It is both my deep objection to these superimposed expectations as well as the deep fear to “rock the boat” of my own life that motivated me to launch this website.
As a transgendered person I have, for the most of my life, experienced a deep gender dissonance. Sometimes it felt like deep shame, accompanied with stress or even anxiousness. Other times it surfaced as jealousy or anger at other peoples who seem to enjoy taking their gender for granted. But most of all, it felt like sadness of some sort – a chronic and persistent grief over the fact that I am so wrong in my body.
Having finally understood, and accepted my condition at late 30ies I was able to quickly move forward with my life by setting my physical and social transition in motion, one that is underway to this day. I have been all too well aware of the terrible social and economic losses that my transformation could bring about in my life, including the loss of friends, separation from my family, social exclusion, and economic hardship. And yet, by honoring my desire to live as a woman and by placing it in the center of my life I at last get a sense that my life is worth something, and that I am true to myself.
And so, I hope that at www.thetrueself.me I not only will find reconciliation with myself but that I will promote an authentic way of living, by modelling it on my own life, as a transgendered person, in a desperate quest for her true self.
I am convinced that all of us want to sometimes be something else than Mr. or Mrs. Normals. And if that’s how you feel, then this is the right website for you.
But that’s not where I want the story to end. Beyond my personal and hopefully inspiring disclosures I want this site to voice the thoughts and opinions on topics that are dear to me, and which are probably also dear to others. And so, expect a masonry-style melange of posts addressing sometimes difficult issues such as climate change and environmental degradation. Expect discourses on happiness, love and spirituality. And don’t be surprised to occasionally see book reviews or just random stuff about positive psychology, astronomy, languages or tons of other things.
And this brings me to saying: Be who you are! Have the courage to accept yourself as you really are, not as someone else thinks you should be. Do not take action or pretend to be someone else for the sake of gaining acceptance.
And if you do this, I think you have a fair chance of being quite a bit happier.